“Look Clark, I need… I need to talk to you about something important.” “I know” she said just above a whisper, her eyes looking down. She ha... hoped he wouldn’t bring it up. “I know about your plans for Switzerland Will.” She was fighting back tears already. “I know that you don’t think your life is worth living but…”“It’s not just that Clark…” he sighed. “I don’t… I don’t even feel like a man, let alone myself. I know I could happy in the moments I’m with you but I don’t want to live if I can’t. Laura turned with surprising speed and slapped her face. Allison fell backwards, landing on her buttocks."You will pay for this," Laura said with eerie calmness.She pinned the younger woman down, digging her nails into her throat. Allison's blue eyes bulged grotesquely. The poodle growled and tried to bite at Laura. She turned to the dog, then kicked it with the pointed toe of her boot. It retreated with pitiful whining.Allison grabbed the opportunity and clawed at the hands that were squeezing. She whispered urgently into the younger one's ear, and with startled looks both nuns turned and almost ran into the rectory.Mom and I stared after the rapidly departing nuns, then Mom turned to me and said, "I have a bad feeling. Are you sure you're ready for this?"I wasn't sure at all, but I figured it was better to get whatever unpleasantness might come over with, rather than waiting for it later. "Let's go in. I might as well face this now."We went into the church and took the pew we usually. The key is to keep trying, even if you do find yourself accidentally gagging now and then.Hold your finger/dildo/toothbrush steady at the back of your throat for up to 10 seconds. Don’t try to move it in or out.Try doing this two to three times every day for a week. You’ll find that towards the end of the week, it will get a lot easier, and your gag reflex won’t be as sensitive compared to when you started.Your gag reflex will become less and less sensitive over the coming weeks as you continue.