.. and thoughts swirling through my head."What if my buddies found out?" i thought , what if I'm gay?" was another ...the longer the day ran and the c...oser the time to meet the more freaked out i became.I actually walked 3 miles to the bar just to try to clear my head. I stood across the street staring into the parking lot Knowing i couldnt go in.Frustration and anxiety playing incredible tricks on my psyche.As i walked away from the bar after a few minutes , angry at myself...and more. Now, I’m going to tell you her real name because I know she’d love to see this online.Sonali would often fall asleep snuggled up curled into my side with the movie still playing. The first time our i****tuous relationship began and we were watching an erotic movie called 9 songs. I was wearing these incredibly thin light blue boxers as the movie progressed and I became very aroused. It was evident from the rock hard erection and the tiny puddles of pre cum in the folds of my sac. She dozed off. Those utterly masculine acts make me crazy with lust. 17. The sweet, juicy taste of fruit… especially something that's fleshy and ripe and drips down my chin… mangoes, oranges, peaches… mmm!18. Listening to or watching other people having sex. I'm such a huge voyeur, and I'd almost rather watch than actually do it—almost.19. Long, slow massages with lots of slick oil. Flesh on flesh, the press of hands, and the aching promise of more.20. Knowing he's watching me. I love putting on a show for. He whispered in my ear, “God I can’t get enough of you. Then he started kissing me lightly when I heard the door open and close and footsteps walk in. “Scott?” I heard Mikes voice ask to which Scott turned and opened the stall door, “Yeah man right here,” Scott replied as Mike came into the stall with us and Scott closed it behind him. I was so embarrassed as Scott’s best friend saw me with him in the men’s room in a bathroom stall completely naked. I was even more shocked with what I heard.