" You can't imagine how good it feels to wear this.'"I don't know," I said, thinking about last year when I got called out to play varsity. "I think I...can."Darlene hugged me. "I wanted to, I mean, that is, Mom wanted me to invite you to dinner. She says she owes you a dinner." That's nice but I don't think it would be a good idea. Mike, your step-dad, and all." Mom said, I wasn't to take no for an answer. You don't want to get me in trouble? Tomorrow night? Before the play?" Well, I'd hate to. That's what always happens to people. You be careful you don't get old.Me: Some days I doubt I will make it to be old. Some others I think I am a survivor and will live forever like a cockroach.I smiled because the conversation was one I might have had with a counselor, if I believed in their value. Juan also made me very comfortable. As he had said before, he was too old for games.Juan: Cher, you goin' to the dance at the community center on Friday?Me: I hadn't planned on it. You asking me for. He whined and tugged, trying to get to her. The woman who held him scolded him. Didn’t she understand? When Misty was near, he needed to be with her! Sensing what was happening, he growled. They were fucking his Misty! How dare those dogs fuck her like a stray bitch in heat! Misty was his! Finally, the torture was over, and he was led back. Instinctively his tail wagged. She was there. She smelled of Hobbit and Nanook. Her body stank of their cum! He approached her from behind. She was on her. No, I didn’t fuck him the very next morning. I waited. I waited to see if it was just a one night thing or if he'd be doing this for a long time. The next night I didn’t go out for a party or anything. After dinner I watched some T.V. and then went to bed. The lights in my room were off, the door was opened, and I was waiting for my step-dad to come and touch me again. I wasn’t even wearing any panties, just my bra. I used to sleep naked most of the time, so he wasn’t going to doubt me after.