I went and fainted on my bed.I woke up at night 2. I got faint memories of what happened.I went to my mom’s room, she was crying in the corner, I we...t and confessed to her, she said she was ashamed to have a child like me.I said I did all these because I love you and I don’t want to love anyone more than you and I confessed the pill too.She hugged me and I cried saying sorry. I felt the urge again but stronger, I felt it controlling me again.I laid her on bed, she thought I was laying her to. A few moments later the door opened and lucky for Josh, Vanessa opened.“Yes, can I …” she started before recognizing Josh.“Oh sorry Mister eh, Josh” “No problem” Josh smiled “I am just glad it’s you opening the door, the others don’t know me yet so that would have been awkward.”Vanessa just smiled and opened the door further letting him in.“Anyway, it’s good that you’re here because I need your help” Josh continued.“Most of my stuff is still packed and I need to buy some clothes for tonight,. “What’s wrong?” she said, tilting her head.“Daisy… I want to ask. But I really don’t want to ask,” I said to her, softly.“You want to know what happened, do you? You always were a curious one, Shawn,” she said as she touched my cheek. “You were not the only one.”I tilted my head, pondering as she changed.“Only one?”“Other men that I dated caught me, you know, working… and you know how that worked out…” she said.I shrugged. She was a stripper. I knew what I was getting into. I didn’t know how. It will do, I thought. Just need to relax my body and loosen up my mind. I quickly poured all of both into a tall glass and took it back to the shower with me. MMM nothing like a hot shower and a cold drink. I sat on the bench letting the water fall between my legs, resting my head back, thinking about all the hot things we'd said to each other over the months. If he's really the way he says he is, I mean.. how could he not be? It's either your nature or it's not, you can't make up the things.