I had mynipples pierced and even added a phoenix tattoo to symbolize mytransformation into the woman I fantasized about becoming.But it all remained a...fantasy. As I got older, I found myself playingwith fewer men, and I put on some weight making it harder for me to passas a sissy, let alone a woman.Still, I would occasionally get really horny (and a little tipsy) and goonline in search of some hard cock. I found myself posting increasinglyrevealing messages on FetLife, SissyMeet,. I always had to leave the bathroom without taking care of business, I felt so annoyed with myself and the other girls! Though as I said after about 10 the restroom was pretty much deserted. I had classes from 9 to 11 which I always left quickly in order to make my way to the restroom. I'd drop my stuff in my room and head to the restroom. Invariably, the bathroom was empty and I was able to drop a deuce (or two) in total privacy.Amusingly, I kept this routine up throughout the whole of college. Sometimes Adin wondered whether any of them would have made it through the dark times without her strength and, even more than that, her perspective. ‘It’ll be alright. He needs to do this. It isn’t a bad thing Adin. It’s hard but it will be healing in the end.’ He looked into the mirror again. Luke had closed his eyes, leaning his head back. Perhaps he was asleep. He looked open and vulnerable and it made Adin’s heart constrict. Not a bad thing? Perhaps, but not a good thing either. ‘I’m. " Janey..." I whispered feeling a mixture of calm tinged with sadness."She didn't want to do it, but Mark told her that it was for your own good and that she'd be helping you. That is what Jade did to me and what Rosa did to Jade. Rosa helped me come to terms with what Jade did to me the way that Jade helped Janey come to terms with what I did to her." Now you're helping me?" I asked."You bet, Honey. We're all important to Mark. Ultimately, he wants to be sure we're all happy."I was momentarily.