As it was dark by then I decided to drive to what I thought would be adeserted picnic viewing area where I could get out and walk about in mylovely se...y clothes. I was dressed in a bronze satin blouse, black micromini skirt, black stockings with high heels. My make-up done by Susiewas very good but a little tarty. Well as I arrived and parked a nicelooking Mercedes pulled in alongside my car, about 15 yards away. I satfor a few minutes to see what would transpire but as the guy made noattempt. It took years but I found my mom had lied to me. I was born as an hermaphrodite. She had the hospital sew my vagina up. This has caused a little turmoil. When I was little in Northern Cal. I found some high school boys jerking off. They spotted and decided I was a great pivot man for a circle jerk. When the first came in my mouth I tried to spit it outHe held my jaw shut so down my throat it went. I smacked my lips a few times then asked for more. After a couple of years they wanted to try. Sorting everything connected with Jack’s death, the funeral arrangements, and trying to pack, left her dead on her feet at bedtime. She apologized to Sam and he always told her, “It’s okay, don’t worry.”She wanted him more than ever now that they didn’t have to sneak around. Well, it wasn’t quite that simple yet. Beth decided it was best not to tell her parents or anyone else about Sam at that point. She would say she was going away for a while and wait until they both felt the time was right. When she looked up, her eyes met the face of a strikingly beautiful woman. She had wild, black hair, a slender frame and gleaming brown eyes which were now filled with understanding and pityShe sat down next to Alicia and ordered a beer. Turning to her, she said, "I know I'm a total stranger, but I am a good listener. Mind telling me what's bothering you?"Alicia was never one to open up readily with strangers, but today she was ready to spill it all out."I went home this afternoon," she said.