But I should have told you. It won't happen again."My apology helped some. At least her face wasn't as flushed and redanymore. But it didn't help near...y enough."You're so right it won't happen anymore," she said. "And..."The woman formerly my sister paused and cocked her head. "What did youjust call me, Rebecca Lynn?"I swallowed hard and thought fast. What did Becky, the real Becky, callher? "I'm sorry, Mommy," I said. "I'm just really tired, you know? Ididn't mean to call you by your first. It was a passive observer—compassionate, but not empathetic. There was a part of me that wanted nothing more than to place all of my soul into this prison of mortal flesh, and live a visceral mortal life from beginning to end, but that would simply be a lie, a momentary escape. I was Arbor. I was no one at all. I was the forest, and the forest was me, and we were I, and we were no one. Peace and serenity, not freedom and individuality. Peace and serenity. Peace. “I am coming back,” I whispered. ” I said to her.“Alisha, I told the crew that when they finish the fencing project, I’d do them all again, if you want to be a part of it it’s ok with me.” Lori said.“I don’t know right now, I’ve got to think about it and talk it over with Robert.” She replied.Lori went to the shower. Alisha and I went into the kitchen and I made a sandwich. “It was really something to see, Alisha, I couldn’t believe that Lori could handle all those guys. Hell they all wore out and she was wanting more. She. I took another puff before he started taking again. “It’s a stupid question but how are you handling this?” I puffed while I thought over his questions. “I really don’t even know what to think yet, there just so many different emotions that I can’t settle on one.” He took a seat on the bench part of the table. “Sherry worried about you, she said you been sitting here for hours.” I didn’t know what to say so I just kept quiet. “I got pizza inside so if you’re hunger.” He left at that as he.