My hand paused, and then Ibrought a forefinger down to the lips of my vagina.Thoughts flashed through my head. I was a virgin. I had no experiencewith...women; not even a kiss. The girlfriends in my fantasies were allvirtual or from magazines. But now I was touching this eroticfemininity, feeling the sensations my hands created. It was strange, asif I was remote from this new body of mine at the same time as beingpart of it, as if what I was doing was happening to someone else.One part of me. Later that day I was in another hotel room 'servicing' six clients for Joan. The men were representing a syndicate that was trying to buy out Joan's little business. I overheard them talking to Joan before their fun with me started."Hey Joan, does the fox over there go with your business should you decide to sell?"Joan laughed and shook her head."No, she's just for your pleasure tonight, I'll have need of her services in the future so she will not go with the business. But, I can always be. " Well, thank you," says Mary who thinks she is very well preserved. She has not had any male appreciation of her appearance since the divorce. Mary has been having self-doubts about her ability to compete with other women. It feels nice to be admired. It feels even better to be admired by your son's young college prep roommates."They want me to videotape you undressing," says Tommy with a look of defeat in his face."What!" "I knew it wouldn't work," says Tommy. "Why would they want that?". At home, I first bent Dolly over the couch, since my parents weren’t home yet, to fuck the shit out of her. Nelly came in as I was doing Dolly, but the way our clothes were, she couldn’t see what she wanted anyway. With Dolly sated, I went to check April and found her contentedly curled up with her aunt and uncle. She knew I was there, opened her eyes, and grinned at me when I kissed her on the forehead. Her eyes closed and I felt how she loved me, but no longer needed me near not to cry all.