I grew more aware with the subjugation of every logical thought that had tried to rush through my head. There was nothing to decide, only to stop deci...ing. My senses had never been so fine-tuned. The intensity of the exhilaration that had me in delectable knots, it was a moment of wilful sedation wherein my senses had suddenly stopped being dull. There was an acute sense of awareness, and I went into my submissive state like a child, taken by the hand. I was dizzied by the dissociation that. And yet ... when Mike touched her ... she didn't feel anything at all.She quit thinking about her boyfriend. Right now he didn't matter. Ruthie needed to concentrate ... just enjoy herself...She took out her digital camera from her backpack and set the delayed focus. She modeled for a couple of pictures ... to add to the hundreds she already had stored on the card. Her eyes rested on the backpack that still contained the bathbrush. She thought about spanking herself ... but figured that was one. He'dtold me that he'd wanted to try sex with a man, but he had never beforetalked about it with another guy.I'd had sex with a man, so I guessed it all added up somehow.I unashamedly looked over his body with admiration. As a general rule Ijust didn't find other men attractive, but it was a part of what had drawnme to him. He had an inner vulnerability that he masked normally,underneath his handsome stockbroker power player exterior. Like a man whodoes it all to compensate for low. He had worked for many of them.She went to the front desk, as they all did each day, to go home. It gave them a chance to talk for a minute, and, possibly, glean a little information from each other. They went out the door, and as usual, Sharon locked it behind them. Phil would be here in a few minutes to unlock it for the cleaning crew, and lock any windows that hadn't been secured, already.She stopped at the gas station and topped off her tank, and buying a frozen drink to cool off on the way.