I felt jealous.We mounted up and began our trip to the White River. We made good time until we came to Butter Creek and began to follow it to the Tygh...Valley. The trail wasn't bad except when we had to enter the streambed. The wagons rolled over the rocks and fell with a crash that rattled everything and everyone inside. Elizabeth and I traded off every hour to keep from taking too much abuse. Louise had finally healed up enough to walk without too many problems and she kept Claire and. Die vrouw had medelijden met ons, maar kon er ook niets aan doen, om het leed te verzachten bood ze ons een kopje koffie aan, De andere man zei "bedankt, maar ik woon hier vlak bij" en hij keek mij aan stelde voor om met hem mee te gaan, om daar wat op te drogen.Het leek me wel wat om met hem mee te gaan om me zo ook weer wat te fatsoeneren.Ik reed achter hem aan, hij woonde inderdaad niet ver van het tankstation.Dat we binnen waren zei hij trek alles maar uit wat zeiknat is en hang het maar. I could tell.“Jake” I began, “I know it’s wrong for most people but what I’ve been doing is wrong too…so I can’t judge you and say not to…do anything. I…I’ve learned that you have to be true to who you are on the inside and not be ashamed of it.” and that was true. I was a slut and I learned to accept and enjoy it. I fucked men for money and sometimes I fucked men for enjoyment. I did crazy things with men, such slutty things…I’d been with women, been with several men, had men push me to my. She stood up immediately and said stop it!! You are crossing your limits. I was in a shock she never spoke to me in such a rude manner, after hearing this, I went to her and took her hands and said why soo serious? She calmed down and then she said, I never had such a strange feeling in my life, now I wanted to take this a step ahead,I said want to experience more to which she replied I’m scared if anythings happens, I said don’t worry nothing will happen and no one will come to know. That day.