In the light of day, I thought again about the possibility that Michelle could someday leave me for this guy. I know that emotions can sometimes take ...ver rational thought, knew it only too well! But I still had every confidence in my wife. One thing that Shaun or any other guy can never have with Michelle that I have is our history. Besides our love, that history binds us. The fear is still there, especially with him living so close but it adds excitement and almost seems to push me, I guess. She noticed a little woody starting to grow in his sweat pants, which thrilled her. Ok Ben, your turn to ask Jessie. Truth or Dare, he asked looking at Jessie. Truth, she said. How about . . . have you ever French kissed a guy? Yep, earlier today when we were in the theater. One of the boys on this bus, and I wont tell you his name, reached over and kissed me when the lights went out and stuck his tongue inside my mouth and I sucked it for him. It felt great! Her enthusiasm surprised. ‘This stupid machine is so outdated.’ I hit it, trying to help. The crew team walks past us all and heads out the main door towards Kendall. ‘What the hell are you doing up so early?’ Judy asks annoyed. ‘Morning walk. Slept early last night,’ I try not to grin. ‘Bitch!’ Ashi teases. ‘Don’t you have any work for today? Or just galavanting about campus?’ ‘Gala-fucking-vanting,’ I smile recalling I am so going to have a lovely day. ‘Make yourself scarce then,’ Judy teases, and I laugh my way. Which gets me two goodnight kisses before they slip below to sleep.I’m now alone in the pilothouse, the thrum of the little diesel engine comfortingly constant. The house lights are down, the radar a dull green glow, the panel instruments dimly lit, and there’s nothing visible in front of me now in the rain. I revert to an old standby for solitude – reading. A book on my Kindle keeps me occupied for what is normally a very boring thing – watching the helm when the course is miles and miles on.