Isn’t… what I….who… I…. want.’ I rambled in a whisper – still staring into her eyes. ‘For my wife.’ I stroked her hair – looking u... at my hand touching it, then at her pale skin of her face, then down at her eyes again. ‘For my love.’ Lynn nuzzled up against me, holding me tight. She calmed down immediately, sensing the truth and the confidence in my words. Knowing that I meant what I said. ‘I love her, Lynn. I have… loved her. In special ways… But… not… fallen in love.’ My heart jumped at. "Relax." I whispered as I slowly laid on top of her. "I don’t wanna do this." She whispered with a trembling voice. She looked at me with fearful eyes. I smiled at her. A kind, soothing smile. I took my hand back from her pussy. I saw the expression on her face suddenly soften, as she thought I’m going to be so considerate and do whatever she tells me. At that moment, as I saw her full confidence in me rise up again, "Now listen to me. You will do as I say!" " John, what happened to you?". Tina put both hands on my shoulders to steady herself as my fingers thrust vigorously in and out of her pussy making her legs weak as I again felt the ripple of her muscles but this time against my fingers. What surprised me the most was how much more loudly and vocal Tina had been over Sharon. as I withdrew my fingers for the final time Tina took hold of my hand and sucked my middle finger into her mouth, sucking her own juices off it, before offering my forefinger to my mouth and told me to. One night, I ordered some yellow pills from an international web site. I remember thinking that they were unusual, but when the arrived, I began to take them as well. When the items started to arrive, I began to panic. If Sasha found the items, she would assume I was some sort of pervert. I took the boxes and stored them, unopened, in the top of the closet in the guest bedroom. Soon, all of the space was taken, so I hid them under the guest bed. .