However, then he began to ask me to move thisactivity outside of our home. His requests ranged from me exposing myselfin public to actually having sex...with another man/woman while he watchedand/or joined in. I could not bring myself to do this, and our sex lifebecame routine, with sexual activity becoming increasingly rare.While I don't offer this as an excuse for what happened that has placed mein this situation, I want the reader to know the atmosphere thatsurrounded me on that fateful. "Yea?" he replied." I... I think I will marry you," Tay told him as she watched the nurse. She saw fury jump into her eyes."What?" The nurse said."Really, baby, you will?" Dee said at the same time, rushing over to the bed."Yes, I love you with all my heart."Tay replied."NO! You can't marry her, she killed your child, she is nothing but trash. HOW DARE YOU?!?!" The nurse exclaimed as she rushed toward Dee and started attacking him.Quickly he restrained her and stared at Taylor. Tay was pushing. Whap! … Whap! I knew that both cheeks now displayed red hand prints. But, I kept my emotions in check and uttered not a sound.TouchingIvan stopped, and then whispered into my ear again, “Bear with me for a moment, Janice. I want to check something.”I felt his right hand – that instrument of torture – reach in between my legs from behind. He moved his arm and hand forward until his hand cupped my sex. That was something no person except Richard had done since we married. I gasped, but froze in. Plus, I had the benefit of an excellent memory.Way back when Becky and I first met I'd already had some sexual experience with several different girls while Becky was still a virgin. I made a big mistake one night after we had become engaged in letting Becky talk me into telling her of my past experiences and she got all bent out of shape. She even went so far as to suggest that maybe we shouldn't rush into things, that we should take some time off from each other and see other people and make.