I really wish mom and I were close, and wonder what I did to make her hate me. I remember my grandmother telling me that mom was fifteen when she got ...regnant. She was a wild child and was dating four different guys. When she had me at sixteen, which stopped all of her fun. Does she resent me? I finally drift off to sleep thinking about the ‘what ifs’.I wake up early and go on my morning run. I feel a lot better after I became active and stopped sitting on my fat ass. I thank my step dad and. Ah...anal sex thing, Jean-Luc watches you, right?"Pause. The tiniest hint of an almost smile from Evan."Yeah." He nodded."So you trust him." Yeah." I don't want to just sit here and talk, and talk, and talk about this," I said. I held my breath for a second, not even sure where to go next. "So you know everything there is to know," I said to Evan, and paused for another second. "Like... whether it would be safe for me to be with him or not."A hot, moist, wind blew by at that second, but I felt. You are alone and I am alone why to cook at different place? She also agreed and starts to prepare for the dinner, she is very active in kitchen and she prepares very nice food within hour. And we had a very good dinner, by that time it was really dark outside so I ask her she can stay if she wish why to go in this darkness she had a second thought and she said OK and change the dress, she were some clothes from my mother and now we were watching TV by sleeping in same bed and it was normal as. Pagal kar ho rahi hu main kuch ho raha hai mujhe.”Main -”Ab aur ghumao ab apni ungli ko chut ke ched par le jao wahan pe leje ke giso aur zor se. Accha ab apni ankhe band kar lo aur ye socho ki tumahara hath tumhara nahi mera hai. Aur main jaisa kahu waise tum apne hath ko karvaogi.”Woh –“Ha thik hai jo bhi karvana hai karvao mujhe kuch ho raha hai tum bolo bas.”Main- “Ab main apna hath tumhari chut pe fira aha hu tumhare anardane pe apni ungliyo se daba raha hu.”Woh -“Yuvan nahi,mujhe wahan pe.