As midnight approached the boys withdrew to their beds and the whispers gradually died down as, one by one, they dropped off. The quiet summer breeze...wafted lazily in through the open window but the clouds stifled any moonlight that might have shined into the little room. A stronger gust of wind threw back the shutter, making it rap against the wall and Erich turned over, his arm falling on Gustav’s chest and instinctively curling around him in a possessive half-embrace. Gustav stirred but did. "Like I said before, Bill, I think I have a right to this information." And you do, Tracy," I agreed. "You really do and I think that maybe with both of our minds working on some of the problems that have cropped up here, maybe something can be done. But there is one thing." What's that?" If I tell you what I know, what happened to me, you can never tell anyone else. Never. If you were to do that and word about what happened got to the wrong people the consequences could be disastrous. Mostly. My usual insistent and demanding, internalcry of, ?Filth, I want more filth, give me more fucking filth!?? was totally stilled.? I had as much filth as any sane man couldwant.? I wasn?t greedy. I wasn?t paying much attention to the last,climatic act in the arena, but I knew what it was having seen it several timesbefore. Over and above the smell of the shit in ourbooth ? the actual ?lake of shit? in arena had, of course, been drained andwell-washed away by now ? but the beautifully, strong,. " Look it's your life and you're going to do what you want, you alwayshave but I just don't want you to get hurt by some stupid broad with anagenda against men." She doesn't have an agenda, just the opposite, she loves men as menand I don't even know why she is helping me do this, but as she saidit's a new thing for her too and it might be kind of fun." Well good luck old buddy, I'll try not to be to shocked and promisenot to laugh when I see you, you know I'll always be there for yousince were.