Later, Nadine told me that she was having Olwen over for dinner.”Rachel looked shocked. “Will Olwen be OK?”“Probably more OK that your abandon...ng her at the ARQ.”“Good point, dad.”“And Olwen certainly didn’t seem disarranged or upset or whatever when I picked her up yesterday and dropped her at the terminal.”“I suppose one or more of us will hear from her in the near future.”“Yes. I’d think so. Or I might hear from Evans or Willy.”“Right.”“Anyway, tomorrow’s a work day, so I’d best wend my way. Have a good night yourself.” Benjamin left the suite leaving the four of us alone.We watched the water from our balcony for a while before going inside. The wind was noticeable and chilly. Inside, we watched some television from shipboard showing the show for tonight. We then saw a schedule for the coming day in Georgetown. Shopping and the beach were the two primary activities suggested. Talking about it, we decided to shop and forgo the beach. We had had plenty of swimming activities over the. She perked her head up immediately and waited nervously for his next command.“Still feel that?” he asked, tickling around her panties and pinching her ass. “From our little mishap this morning?”“Mhhmm.” Megan nodded. A large silicon ball secured into her mouth limited her options for communication to nodding, shaking her head, mumbling and pleading with her eyes. The straps were uncomfortably tight, but what was even more frustrating was the added chin strap; a four-inch piece of leather that. “You belong to me, and you love me, right? And you trust me right, my sweet obedient sissy, right?” I was shaking now, as I forced my words past my trembling lips, “Yes Mommy. I love you…” And I DID trust her, even though I was in awe of her and what she was capable of. Nervous. And I was comfortable BEING nervous. Giving over control and letting HER put me in my place, taking me to places I either never imagined or hoped WOULD happen. I can't tell the difference. But never having the courage.