"Oh, sweetie, I know you do. And Mommy loves you so much," she whispered with misty eyes and a shiver in her voice. Mommy reached out her hand. I took...it and stood up. Standing like this, almost naked and bare footed looking into Mommy's soft eyes; I realized that she was almost a head taller than me in her stiletto shoes.Mommy smiled at me with a gleam in her eyes. She took me in her arms, holding me close to her voluptuous body. I melted into her warm body and put my arms around her. My stiff. The emptiness in my heart and soul was beyond description. It felt as though I was falling, just falling down a deep dark endless pit with no hope of hitting the bottom, no hope to stop my fall. Longingly I looked at the photo of my now lost love that I held in my right hand. Slowly I turned my head, feeling no emotion I stared at the bottle of pills in my left hand. The loss of my love was soul crushing and the only thought in my mind was if I cannot be with her in life, perhaps God would. Now that was the ticket. She picked up the phone and started to dial, and then she checked herself and slowly hung up the phone. Things were different since the change; she'd better verify that she was a member of the club before she tried to get a tee time.Ten minutes later, she was back facing her closet, having traded one dilemma for another. While she had her tee time, she now had to pick out some clothing. Natalie thought hard about what she'd seen - as Nelson - other women wearing around. I smiled again then she checked her phone for some messages, resting her hand on my thigh as she replied to some messages.She was getting really comfortable with me, and I loved it. The movie got over, and again, we held hands as we walked out of the hall into the food court of the mall in which the hall was. I grabbed a light sandwich and some juice, and she took the same, praising me for being health conscious.I returned the compliment again, as I noticed she was getting closer to me than.