Getting up close with your big, strong, sadistic bully is somehow erotic for me. I don’t know if I’m masochistic or anything but I really don’t ...are. I found out I was gay when I’m 9 years old and I’m watching straight porn. As I masturbate I focused my attention to the woman, how the huge cock slick down to her pussy, how she moans with pleasure. I thought to myself “How does it feel to get fucked? Does it feel good?” These are the questions that boggle my mind. I said to myself “I don’t have. The next shot has the woman on her knees sucking the bigger cock and mom says to no one in peticular how can she get so much cock in her mouth without throwing up, my wife says it just takes practice then mom says your dad had a small dick but was a good provider almost trying to justify his small dick. Then they both go back to watching I get up and go get more drinks and roll another joint this time adding more coke, I hand the joint to mom who has spread her legs causing her nightgown to. She was shorter than I, and her forehead pressed against my lips.I suddenly had some very un-motherly, un-sisterly feelings towards her – definitely feelings inappropriate for a therapist. These feelings confused me. I'd never felt anything like that towards another woman before. Well, that's a lie. But never so strongly.It made me pull back a bit, and when I did, she looked up at me questioningly. Her face was framed by dark curls. Her eyes were so brown and deep like holes; so completely. So enjoying looking at your hard cock. I want you inside my wet pussy. At the same time I want to please you. I want to give pleasure to you. So want to please you baby. Let me please you. I want to lick your tip. I want to lick your swollen shaft. Feel and hear you react to me mouth and hands on you. Now let me open my mouth and take your tip into my warm wet mouth to taste your cock. Feel your cock tip fill my mouth. My one hand around your shaft to gauge your desire to thrust into my.