This, of course, leads to Mother teasing me more by asking if I am lookingout for a new outfit for myself! I am always up and dressed before Motherand...most days take her a cup of tea in her bedroom when I hear her come outof the shower. I then sit on the bed and chat whilst she dresses and putson her makeup. She often asks my opinion on the outfit she intends to wearthat day, sometimes what underwear she should wear with a particularoutfit. This always leads to some teasing."I am sure you would. “Well, while he looked around, she dragged me in the back and brought up the idea. We know a few gay guys who might volunteer, but we were trying to be really selective. We wanted someone who had a good head on their shoulders more than just nice shoulders. The fact he was older was actually in his favor because we weren’t looking to have a permanent guy in our lives. We hadn’t made a firm decision, but decided to bring it up to him.”Shelly shook her head, “I know some guys might have jumped at. I closed my eyes and faded back to slumber, feeling content and warm in a way I had not felt in years. ..... When I woke up, Michael was gone to school and I reflected on what I had done. Many times in my life the day after has been an 'Oh my God I can't believe I did that,' followed by anxiety and guilt. Surprisingly, after committing such a taboo act against society's standards, I felt no guilt, no anxiety, just an odd equilibrium. The rest of the day was busy with a few houses to show. Reader discretion is advised ....Well, I guess I really gotta write this, dont I?The doc's insist that writing might be the best way for me to deal withit, and wont let me go until I do, so here goes .....But I am gonna tell it my way.Lets hit the wayback machine back to early October, because that's asclose to the beginning as we probably need to go.Thats when a boy named Tom transferred to Walter Raleigh high school.Tom was ...quiet, shy. An easy target for bullies, who called him "fag"and.