Relax,” he pulls away to assuage my growing fear. Then we’re both right back at it. We continue our teenage make-out session for about five minute... before he starts to get antsy. His hands haven’t moved much from my hips and sides and my hands have been resting on his shoulders. Again I attribute my courage to a moment of God using me as a vessel but I pull my arms from his shoulders and slide them under his and down to his hips and I pull him in. Immediately as I try to pull him in I feel a. “No.”Now I was intrigued. Lara was never one to shy away from sexual talk. That was my job! I went through my mental Rolodex of Lara’s known sexual acts. Outdoors with James; blowjobs, even with me watching a bit that one night; fingering herself in the tent ... She let James come in her mouth, I knew... Did James ever lick her down there?“He gave you oral sex?” I asked.“Matt, really? You’re going to start guessing?”“If I have to! Did he?”“It’s not that. I’ve done that before.”“I couldn’t. Mrs. Gresham washed and dried her hands before giving Billy a kiss on the cheek and a tender hug. ‘It has been much too long,’ she said. She then greeted Tom with similar warmth. Jane then lead Billy into the living room to meet Chad. Chad was about the same height as Deacon, but was dressed in nicer clothes. As they shook hands Chad asked, ‘What’s the other guy look like?’ Tom jumped in, ‘He’s really messed up. I bet he’ll be in the hospital for a week or more.’ Tom’s words came with the. She was the type he would have gone after. He could see himself now.. circling the room slowly.. making eye contact... almost a scent.. pounce.. and capture... she would have been his for the night... in the old days. Suddenly one of the noisemakers elevated his obligatory unfunny laugh at something equally as unfunny. Jake turned to look.. but not at him. His eyes found hers.. lost.. confused.. wanting.. then his heart skipped a beat as he.