He tried to explain it to me, that I was getting too old and becoming a young woman ... and young women didn't cuddle in their daddy's lap. I tried to...act like I understood but I didn't. I only knew I was never going to get that affection, again." In fact I tried, even acting up and swearing at him later. But he never spanked me again, and he never let me hug him for more than a few seconds, and standing up, at that."I just shook my head ... a selfish question came to mind. How is it I attract. " She whispered in my ear."Yes Helen", I said She rolled her over on her back and kissed and sucked on her beautiful 38D tits, licking her hard nipples and sucking on each one. I worked my way to her pussy.Mum had a thick bush of dark pubic hair. I ran my tounge through her bush and found the wettness of her pussy slit. I put my finger inside her and brought it out and up to my mouth, licking her juices. I pushed her legs apart and ran my tongue over her clit. She moaned. I sucked on her clit. Not for long oblivious though as Steve looked up and met my gaze, holding it as he continued to fuck Toni. I was frozen under his stare and could only drop my gaze submissively as he looked contemptuously at me. He stopped fucking Toni and she turned to see what had halted his barrage but she barely registered my presence, just a smile that I couldn’t quite make out. She lay there, her legs still akimbo as Steve spoke to me.His greeting was humiliating to me in the extreme “Well look at this!. We chatted on here for a while, then he would phone me ( actually he had me phone him) and we would chat about what we both wanted from each other. We made arrangements to meet. I was to meet him and dress as he instructed. I was to shave off all my body hair. I was to wear a pair of flimsy shorts, no underwear, and a light t/shirt. In order to meet him I had to catch a local bus and go on a journey of about 50 mins. I had to take all my sissy gear with me and he would decide what he wanted me.