However, something happened that marked the beginning of the end of my residency there. I fell in love.Remember the young lady that was drugged? I had...decided not to party that night because I was still suffering from the previous evening's celebration. After the hoopla died down, I was the only one sober enough to get the girl home.I didn't want to send her home in a taxi; she was still a little out of it and I wasn't sure she could get into her house. By the way, the taxi drivers loved us and. But Jill said you wanted me to move out." I do. Eventually. Are you planning on sleeping on that couch until you die?" No." Till you're 25? 30? 35?" I didn't think about it." That's all I'm saying. This is a temporary thing. I have no problem with you getting back on your feet. I do have a problem with you becoming a permanent boarder." Well, I wasn't planning on being a permanent boarder." So, what plans have you made about going someplace else?" I hadn't thought about it." That's what I mean.. You’d just lost your uncle. I apologise. And …’ she paused, ‘I’m still upset but we shouldn’t make such important decisions at a time like this, so can we have a cooling-off period until after the funeral, then we’ll take stock, OK?’ Hugely relieved, I tore up the begging speech and told her that I agreed, we both had a lot to think about and it made sense to give ourselves a few days to reflect. And then, pushing my luck, I added casually, ‘And,er, am I in the spare bedroom again tonight?’. I hated that the only reason I probably keptmy virginity was one of their parents arriving. Most of all though I will hatethem forever because whenever I see them or think back to that morning I dripwith anticipation for a dark and disturbed future. But the horse couldn't know that, even princes didn't know everything. SoI whispered a plea of mercy and crawled forward shaking like a crack whoreneeding a fix. I was a whore but this was my fix filthy unthinkable animallove. The horse made more.