I kept it all to myself but I mooned over him for month after month. Every time I masturbated, it was with a mental image of John between my legs; eit...er his tongue or his cock.Oh, I dated Tim some but he was just there as a stand-in for my real 'throb,' John.Now, at twelve, or so, my crush wasn't particularly sexual but in the next months and even years, it became very sexual. I wanted John to be the boy who I gave my virginity to. It's all I dreamed about.But, I couldn't act on it because. We fucked Wednesday night and he wanted to see me one more night before he left. I convinced him to stay back for Friday night if he wanted some fun. Alan was also told that a ‘friend’ of mine will join if he decided to stay back. He, like Josh assumed I was talking about a girl. God was he a puppy in my hands when he realized I was about to raise the stake. What married man will ever say no to a free night of fun? I am sure he found a good enough lie to convince his wife why we was stuck on. "A girl," Jeff explained. "She's been hurt bad." "Well, what the hell did you bring her here for? Why didn't you take her to a hospital?" "Because I brought her here," Jeff said.Rebus must have heard the new note in Jeff's voice because he frowned. There had never been any confidence in Jeff's voice before. Rebus had always been able to run over Jeff and get Jeff to bend to his will. Something must have happened while he was in the city."You're not bringing her in," Rebus said.He didn't like. "That's enough, General," Daddy's voice cut through the thoughts swirling in Kathy's head. "The war's over. She's not the enemy. She's your own flesh and blood." SON, SIT DOWN AND SHUT UP!" Grand Dad roared so loudly that even Mutzi stopped in mid-stroke."No, Dad, not this time," Daddy said calmly. "Let her go. You're not playing, your not disciplining, you're hurting. Kathy studied her S&Mily Post and worked hard to make this party a success and you just walked in and took over. And now,".