I’m trying to get my life in order.”“I know, it’s just ... never mind.”“If you don’t tell me, we can’t work it out.”“I like making...love with you, Mik! A lot!”“But is that the right thing for us to do?” I asked.“Now? Ever?”“I think the only thing we can worry about is ‘now’. The future will have to take care of itself.”Jocelyn sighed deeply, “I screwed up so badly in ninth grade...”“Because you didn’t tell me how you felt?”“Yes.”“I didn’t tell you, either,” I said.“Even if you had, I’d have done. With her long blonde hair and blue eyes, she could go right back to playboy and pose again, putting those young babes to shame.The problem is me, even though the doctor said we can resume a normal sex life, I find that I can’t make love to my wife. All of a sudden this inability of mine, is starting to cause a strain on our marriage. I think there is a lot of guilt inside of me, for causing her to go through all the pain and suffering during the last pregnancy.I find myself staying in my. Pam, Alice, and I were playing back behind the cameras a little, so I got a little worked up. We even snuck out for a bit for a couple of quickies. Thank heavens this house had an empty bedroom.”“In the interest of science, would you mind revealing yourself to this producer. I may have offered stardom to the wrong person a week ago.” He chuckled.Dave turned towards the wall and dropped his trousers down. The move wasn’t so out of place since the three actors and one actress were still milling. My manicured fingernails holding thewine glass were one such reminder. The sound of my nylons when Icrossed my legs under the table was another. The scent of my perfumewas distinctly feminine as were the wisps of hair that fell by myface. The lipstick stain on my glass was another reminder.Despite all of these signs I was able to relax a little but I stillremained fairly quiet. I figured the less I talked the safer I wouldbe in my role. I breathed a big sigh of relief when the guys paid.