After a shower and breakfast I went to my work table but there was noway I could concentrate. I would be staring at a photograph trying tofigure out w...at was wrong with the color and find myself daydreamingabout going somewhere in a car with Robert driving.Finally when I looked up and realized I had spent half an hour goingaround in circles asking if maybe I was gay and had never realized it, Idecided to give up on work for a few hours and do something else.I went to buy some more clothes. My. Finally, the Thursday arrived and it was our last night in the cottage and although we would be driving to Calais with Martin to spend the next three more nights with him, I was expecting her to make our last night there memorable.It was just after nine thirty when we all went to our bedrooms. I waited for a further hour before being summoned into their bedroom and I had my makeshift blindfold all ready.Jen was sitting on the end of the bed with the sheet draped over her and Martin tied my. Maybe one vehicle every half hour or so. So the odds were in my favor.I looked around and made sure all the windows and balconies in my building were dark and empty. And then decided, well, here goes. No point in dilly-dallying. I walked out of my door. Stood there naked for a few seconds with the door open…. asked myself one last time… was I sure I wanted to do this? Yes, I was. This was going to be awesome! Pulled the door, and heard the lock click shut. Well, no going back now, I said to. It started during the movie." She ok?" Peter asks."Yeah, just embarrassed."Peter nods and continues to drive in silence. I watch Peter escort Taylor to her door and perform the virtually identical goodbye.He doesn't say anything when he gets back in the car. He looks at me then just starts driving. It doesn't take long to figure out that he's going to the river or that he's pretty pissed off about something but what I haven't a fuckin' clue. I wish I had a cigarette. I get a little fidgety when.