I wickedly opened it, determined to find what else he hadbeen hiding from me."Liz got up and walked behind her daughter and massaged her neck, andrepl...ed, "Don't worry dear your father, and I will be here for you. Ifthat man hurts you I will cut his nuts off!"Carol laughed nervously, "Mom, trust me that will not be necessary. Let mego on. I hacked into Phil's computer. It took all of 5 minutes to find hislogon password, he had used my name. I thought that was sweet but not veryimaginative."With. "Jordan, you've got tounderstand..."I interrupted him, "No Doc, I don't have to... Do you know how it feelsfor that to happen to you? To have all the people you care aboutconstantly look at you with pity? Like you're already dead? Do you havethe slightest clue? That's what you need to understand!"He shook his head. "Jordan... I'm sorry... I don't know what that'slike... Can you tell me?"I wrapped my arms around myself as I slowly rocked, after a few momentsto gather and calm myself I looked up. " She was certainly a good wife and a good mother, but that came later, after I fell in love with her. My memories of the academy will always be colored by the weekends.That weekend was the fifth or sixth time Violet had come down to the city for the weekend since I started at the academy and she went away to school. While I took a lot of teasing from my roommates about her, we'd shared a room enough times in the past that I didn't really think much more of it than I ever had. The quarters. It was quick and simple to make, and I already had three of the necessary ingredients. Eggs, oatmeal, and cottage cheese. Just needed to buy some hamburger meat, green beans, carrots, and a good vitamin supplement.But, as I printed out a copy of the recipe, I couldn't help wondering if food would be enough. Heck, I didn't even know if the dog was still in the park, or would return there, tomorrow. Maybe somebody else found and returned him, already. Or..."Could he be dead?" I wondered as I sat.