While we were drinking, I told Kim multiple times that I have been thinking about her since I saw her pictures but she laughed those conversations off... I finally told Kim that I wanted to sleep with her which she denied immediately by saying “that is not happening”. She then explained that she already has a boyfriend but went on to explain that their relationship is a little complex. They both have some fun here and there and at times involve a third or fourth person to keep it exciting and fun. My mom told me to take sweety to our house which was next to the street.When we were walking home, we were alone so we were just chatting. She got a little flirty saying to me “You are a very good-looking lad. I can’t believe you are my cousin. And I told her, you look great too. We got to the house first and she suddenly asked me, “Do you have a girlfriend?I said yes, but I got breakup.I was very serious but my girlfriend cheated me.I asked about her relationships, she told she had two. .." I was in reproductive healththe day before, Friday, and they were talking about how women had breaststo breastfeed, and how they produced it. One guy asked if guys could dothat, and apparently under the right circumstances, they could. I felt afunny itch run across my chest at that I looked down and nothing seemedout of the ordinary.As I was eating my cereal, some milk dripped out of my mouth, and landedright in my crotch. "Dammit, I thought, I wish I had bigger lips to keepthis stuff in my. ”“Yeah, I probably would ... not because I liked your hair, but because I wanted to boost your ego. You would perceive it as deception.”“That’s right.”“So, I need to go counter to my instinct and tell you, yeah they did a lousy job. You’d perceive that as the truth, but you wouldn’t want to go out with your hair looking bad. I’m damned if I do and damned if I don’t.”“Yes -- you’re beginning to understand this curse of mine and why it’s fatal to a relationship. It’s the accumulation of deception.