As Rachel drove she kept glancing to me, finally after about fifty miles she said I dont think I can go through with the wedding, now I know theres mo...e pleasure to have during sex, I cant see myself with Tony for life, arriving home she called Tony, he was here in half an hour, they went into the front room to talk, after ten minutes Tony came out, he was looking down and just grunted as he passed me, Rachel came out and told me she had told Tony she didnt feel ready to get married just yet.. She put down her cup of tea and looked questioningly at me."So, Ben, I suppose you are going to tell me that you're watching pornography because of me."I felt no small degree of embarrassment as I started to answer her. "Well, Kelly, it's like this... look, I accept that you're not that interested in sex at the moment. But that doesn't mean that I'm not! What am I supposed to do? Watching pornography and satisfying my own needs is surely preferable to me having an affair with another woman,. She studied the silverware in front of her wondering whatother people in the restaurant were thinking of her. She hoped none of themknew her. On the one hand he was handsome and self-assured. He never raisedhis voice or was offensive to those around him, yet his presence was commanding.She knew that in another circumstance she would have found him very attractive.He had taken her on a roller-coaster ride ever since this morning?everythingwell planned out, it seemed. It was disconcerting that he. "Far to go, old chap?" It was one of the city gents. He'd downed a few last night, but seemed little the worse this morning."Sorry?" No, it's all right. But have you got far to go?"He thinks I'm deaf. "Not far," Russ shouted back. "Just up the hill past the market. But even so..." Stay put, old boy! She'll understand. We're going to spend the day drinking. It's two feet deep out there, and drifting in the wind. More on the way, too, by the looks of it." Shouldn't wonder." Russ turned his.