’ ‘Then what?’ ‘I don’t fucking know. All I know is I want your child. I might be crazy but I want your child.’ ‘But how long have we kn...wn each other?’ ‘Jim, this baby was conceived the first night we were together.’ ‘That’s fucked.’ ‘Yes, Jim. You fucked me and I fucked up. What can I say? Despite everything, despite the whole bitch routine the first night we met, and because I have been around enough boys and men who couldn’t touch you in so many fucking ways, I knew you were the one.’ ‘But. Weakness swept over her. Her insides were a whirl of emotion and her body was trembling violently. ‘Wow!’ Lee said when the kiss finally ended. Carol’s chest felt as if someone had put a steel band around it. Her heart was pounding so hard she was sure Lee could hear it. Lee stroked her face tenderly, slid his hand down over her neck and into the open neck of her dress and Carol’s legs went weak. She wanted him more than she’d ever wanted a man before! No man had ever treated her as well as Lee. As I get to the landing I hearing the whirring of the PC fan which helped me go straight to the room. The scent in her room is intoxicating. My head spinning with all kinds of sexual thoughts. “Ah, you have found my room. I’m sorry about the mess. Let me show you what’s wrong with this thing.” Kathy said. She moves towards the mouse and her right breast brushes gently against my right shoulder. Her perfume lingering around me. I get very excited and I begin to stir in my seat. I didn’t even. If, on the other hand, such a topic isn't upsetting, then please read on! ]Beneath the surface details of daily life in 'The Family' ministry, the most fundamental, guiding idea of all was the sincere and heartfelt recognition by a white male (such as myself) that the ideology of 'White Supremacy', and of the very concept of 'Whiteness' itself, had left in it's wake such a mass of horror and degradation (to both blacks and whites), that something far, far more was needed than merely mouthing.