She commented on my muscular body and my good looks. I also returned the favor by commenting on her good looks. Finally, we began to talk only about p...rsonal things. She told me that she came to Canada 10 yrs ago. She told me that she had been married for 4 yrs and has a 2 yr old daughter. When i heard this, i said “Wow, and you still have that body?! You’re husband is a really lucky man!” She blushed and said “Oh Stop” I then knew that she was flattered so i continued. I told her “Really, to. For four days, I did not dare talk to him. For three nights, I tossed and turned. My sleeping dreams resounded with the barks of masters, parents, judges, magistrates, reproaching, shaming, condemning. Then I'd wake to waves of relief knowing it was a dream. I hadn't done anything wrong; I wasn't going to prison. A mere moment later I'd be overwhelmed by the consciousness that I had indeed done something heinous.And yet, I longed to re-experience that hour of solace, that paradox; arousal which. " That title would never do for an album cover, but it was a nice sound at 5AM.At 8AM on a dreary Saturday morning with a light mist, I took the bike to breakfast. I wore my special rain suit, and I was grateful that I didn't have a fancy hairdo to worry about. That rain didn't do the Gunny's bike any good, but I really wanted to get out and try to wash the stink of the night before off my soul. If a roboslut had a soul, that is. Okay I at least had the old Maxine's bag of guilt.I walked into. ” hey …is there is any girl friends to you ? if there is someone , try to look and feel them …”” no . I want yours .they are the greatest and remarkable ones. I just want to see them and feel them . can you do me this favour ….”She snapped and in impulse hit me hard in the cheeks.Then , she told …” this is wrong raghul . don’t feel it . it is very wrong …”I said ..” yeah . right or wrong . I want it . if you can decide , you can give it to me . please ..” I cajoled and softly cried .Mom became.