So I kissed each nipple and led her to my bed room.Lulu looked at me and said, “I have been angry with you for the past week. Ever since Joni told m... about your get together. I was mad because she knew that you are mine. After a week of anger and watching I realized … My waiting and my anger I stood a chance of losing you. When I saw you in the Hospital bed... because of fear and worry I got angry because of fear of losing you.”I put my arms around her and told her about what had taken place. I squatted down and pulled up my shorts. Ellie slapped my ass.“Hey!”“Hey yourself.” She grinned. “Our ride’s here.”We had to cross the small section of beach to the wide roundabout inside the palisade gate. A driverless golf cart waited but another man, probably 50, was loading a couple of teenaged Arabic girls. He looked up to me and waved with a great big smile.Ellie elbowed me to make me wave back. I was spared any small talk because he climbed in and drove away before we reached the cul de. He kisses me softly, smoothing my hair from my eyes... ‘I love you’ he whispers Only he has ever loved me He slides his hands down my thighs and slips a finger between my legs. ‘ You are so wet sweetheart’ And I am aching for him ‘Please take me’ I breathe into his ear, kissing his neck, sliding my nails down his back, ‘I need to feel you desperately’ he kisses me passionately, our tongues snaking together as I feel his cock explore my entrance gently. I did lots of reading and realisedthat I needed between 5 and 10mg per day to start the journey, plusProvera at 5mg per day and an anti-androgen. I thought about seeing myGP but feared a negative response. I decided, why wait for the approvalof a doctor, when you can get hormones from a pharmacist friend. I askedhim and managed to get Premarin 2.5mg and Provera 5mg. I also managed toget Androcure. Thus my journey to happiness began. I started by taking7.5mg Premarin per day plus 50mg Androcure.