I’m NOT a ‘member! I just think this site, and others like it, have made me decide to retire from the profession I love! I became an e****t 15 yea...s ago, at the age of 23, following a failed marriage. I had no income, no qualifications (except being darned good sexually!) and most importantly, very few inhibitions! I loved what I did! Earned a decent amount of money, and enjoyed ‘earning’ it! It wasn’t all ‘plain-sailing’… some of the punters ARE repulsive (luckily not many! ha ha), and some of. Lucian only saw sick lust back then; his ignorance closed himself downagainst any other possibility. And then there was Drew, grabbing hishand and riding it; there was the rape at Halloween; the near-rape bythe truckers when he ran off, and the awful brute feeling him up in thesnow. In a flash he relived how Drew sucked the man's cock.Experience had only fed his fear.Everybody wanted to use and abuse him. To Parker he was a bag of money,to his mother an obstacle, and to his father... So why. I had been just fine, damn it. I had a great mother. I had a happy childhood.But my mom was gone now. Eddie had just come into my life. I didn't need him. Not really. Just because he happened to be my father didn't mean anything now that my mom was gone. I didn't need him back then, so I didn't need him now.But I felt like I needed someone. My grandmother, all of my friends, they were so far away. It seemed like I felt more alone every second that I was in this place, with these people. I found. I see you lying on the floor,Your heart's not beating any more.My lust for you just cannot wait.Your skin, it tastes like chocolate.Smiling, she reaches up and kisses me with s[/b]uch force that I almost fall over. She’s always been stronger than me. But kissing? Hell….. I show her that I can stand with her, and kiss back. Ignoring the shining stars in my eyes and the bulge in my pants, I hold her. I hold her just like I do when there’s a storm outside. But this time, there’s no storm..