..pussy...then lowered myself onto him again. I don't know howStanley was so patient, but he just lay there watching me, caressing mythighs and arms,...letting me set the pace of my demasculinization. Thesecond time, the head slipped in easily, and ever so slowly, I got thehead of his penis past my anal ring. I moved up and down a couple oftimes, feeling just the first couple of inches of that thick black cockmove in and out of me, a preview of what was to come. I applied even morelube to the. Yes, or no."Make a fucking decision, Ed, I said to myself. And you know what the only true decision is. So, I took her hands in mine, and said, "Yes, goddammit, yes! Yes!." She looked at me in utter shock. I laughed. "I don't even know what the question is, but if you're asking, then it's yes. OK? Yes." And then I kissed her. "Yes." I only wish I had a camera to take her picture then. I kissed her again. Then I dropped her hands. "I have to go play baseball," I said with a grin. And then I. I turned on the water and stepped in. I couldnt help but think to myself. Why is he doing this for me? Does he like me a lot or a little? I noticed he used conditioner and Volumizing shampoo, thats probably how he gets his hair so poofy. I decided to use it. After cleaning myself I directed my attention to the sink. How was I supposed to brush my teeth? I finished up and went out to ask him. Hey Nate do you have an extra toothbrush? I asked. Yeah under the counter. he said. Thanks. I went and. I wanted to feel good again. I longed for it. No matter all the successes in my professional life, there was a large, gapping hole in my personal life. There was no one to share it with. There was no family to come home to every night. There was no one to celebrate joyful occasions with. No one to cry and be sad with. No one to love and no one to love me. I felt hollow and empty. The family and friends that gathered after my father’s death brought these feelings to the surface. I felt.