I am unused to failure. I haven't experienced it very often and this came as a shock. I thought I was so well prepared. I was sure Howard would see th...t this was important to me and that he wouldn't deny me my need. He's never denied me anything I really wanted before. Why did he react so dramatically this time?I had to rethink my situation. I love Howard. I know I do. But I need some excitement in my life. I'm nearly fifty and I need this. I need someone to help me feel alive and desirable.. “You’re sweet. You know Mike, I’m glad I have a little brother I can talk to about anything and who wants to look after me.” “Would you like me to do it properly, you know rub some cream on for you?” “I’d love you to! Are you sure you don’t mind?” “Well lay down and I’ll do it.” She handed me the bottle of stretch-mark cream and settled full length on the sofa cushions pulling her loose smock up to below breasts and putting her hands above her head. I couldn’t help noticing that the large waist. I was accommodating right boob in my mouth while creasing and crushing her left boob.She was holing my head and caressing my hairs with her fingers. I gave gentle bite on her boobs and switched her boobs. Our eyes filled with full of lust. Her hands are now caressing my full grown dick hiding beneath my shots and madly feeling it. We moved to the bed, now I am standing and she was sitting in bed. She removed my shots I am in my Jockey brief and my 7” is struggling to stay in. She kissed on my. I managed through to about swat 13 because he was putting some space between those seats. But at swat f******n he decided to rain them on my butt until he hit twenty. I couldn't stand it. It hurt too much and at swat 17, I lost control of my bladder and peed on the floor. I felt my body flush red. I never pee in front of him to begin with, and then to just lose it on the kitchen floor, I could barely breathe from embarrassment."I told you not to do that. You're really having issues with rules.