He was hard on me growing up, but I always thought he loved me and wanted to do what was best for me. It felt darn good when I heard him bragging on m... to the farmhands. "Nathan's the strongest one on the team," he'd said. "Plows over those quarterbacks like they're nothin'."Me being gay was just a part of the problem. The other part was I didn't want to be a farmer. I guess Mamma was right to keep me home and away from the rest of the world. One can't miss what one doesn't know.. After a while he started wondering if his many years of outstandingscores in school would still be his salvation. With great effort hetried to do some homework before dozing off completely exhausted.Kyle could see that his mother was still upset the next morning atbreakfast. He ate quickly and figured it was best to get out of her way.But, when he tried to go Mother wanted to talk." Kyle, we never talk very much about our relationship and yourpersonality. I guess I find it all very. Fritz asked if she’d slept well and she fibbed and said she had. When they finished breakfast, as they sat drinking coffee and, for the teens, juice, Danny asked Eleanor if she wanted to play games today. She asked what game he had in mind and he excitedly claimed he’d like to play ?cowboys and Indians.? Eleanor said she didn’t know how to play, but she was willing. Danny explained that she was to hide and his posse would try to find her.She agreed but said she needed to dress first. As. Mum and Dad commented on how quiet I was over dinner but I couldn't bring myself to reveal my discovery or how I felt about it."Are you looking forward to Alice's party?" Mum asked.I pushed my plate away. "I'm not feeling very well," I excused. "I think I'll go and have a lie down."I reclined on the bed staring up at the ceiling and wallowing in self-pity. I heard the door bell and a short time later, a timid knock disturbed my sorrowful contemplation. Alice slid tentatively into the room and.