When we finished up, Dave said he had a few cold beers in the fridge to open, but I wanted to get a shower at my place across the road first. Dave sai... to let myself in by the side gate when I returned.I walked through the side gate, passing the newly laid slabs.'Dave? Are you here?' I called out.'Yes mate' He replied. 'I'll be with you in a moment, I'm just drying off. Help yourself to a beer and open one for me too please!' I found the bottle opener, and opened two beers, putting them on the. ’ I laughed, ‘It was lovely.’ Then more seriously, ‘Mike?’ He looked at me, ‘What’s the matter. That was marvellous but something’s wrong, isn’t it?’ He gave me with a despairing look, ‘Oh Caroline,’ he said, ‘I just can’t get that Sunday out of my mind. I’m so afraid of hurting you again, losing control.’ He smiled sadly, ‘You do that to me, make me feel so strongly about you. I’m frightened it’ll happen again – I won’t be able to control myself.’ He looked lost, helpless, ‘I was sure you. "Go on Foxy, laugh!" she said with a grin.I tried to speak but no noise came out of my mouth. I tried again, I tried to make any sort of noise and found I couldn't."Hahaha, isn't that better Foxy? No more annoying vocal chords to disturb my peace and quiet," she cackled. She left me there to contemplate this latest horror.I wanted to shout and scream but I now couldn't. Instead I screamed and shouted internally, bashing against my cage.When I finally wore myself out and I was on the edge of. In some way or the other I find myself responsible for his demise. Had I not fought with him the previous day then things would have been quite different today.Some of you might find it boring but it has to be said. May be it is the time when I can ask for an apology to the one who is no more with me. The story begins with my first day at school. When I was just three and a half years of age. There I met a person for whom I could never have guessed that he’ll my only friend for the coming 22.