She did look tired, and I offered to give her a break by watching the children a few hours while she took a nap, but she said she was o.k.I was awaken...d by the telephone ringing at 230 a.m. When I answered, it was Amanda. She sounded distraught as she said “Bill, I’m sorry for calling you at this time of the morning, but I am going crazy. Baby Jackson has been crying for three hours and will not stop, and I don’t know what to do. Could you please help me.?” I told her I would be there in. When I was closing the door behind me, I felt she was pretending to sleep while I was in the room and woke up after I came out... I didn't look back... walked strait to my room closed the door... I was over whelmed... I tried to sleep fully covered in my blanket... tears were rolling out of the corner of my eyes... I stayed like that for a while... suddenly I heard the room door open... I didn't move... she came closer and sat on the bed... touched me gently on my shoulder over the blanket and. "I'm sorry but I have to go."I stood there in disbelief as I watched the door close behind her.I guess I was in denial for a few days. I kept thinking that this would blow over and Abby would come back but I finally realized that she wasn't coming back. I tried calling her. The first few times Abby wouldn't speak to me. When she finally did, I asked her when she was coming back and she said that she didn't think she would be coming back.She said, "I am thinking of asking for a divorce." No.. ..better them than you. I could feel every set of eyes looking at me starting at my penis, laughing, thinking of what to say at dinner time when we are together. But no, I was led into Miss Halsteads room and ordered to stand next to her, she took out a folder and took a few minutes reviewing what she had probably only just finished reviewing and then turned to me.“So c***d” Miss Halstead said. “You have a fine erection and have ejaculated successfully”She knew perfectly well what my name was,.