”After the bitter talk with my mom, I left for my lady love’s farm. After a day of the tiring ride, I reached Faiza’s place. But all the tiredne...s vanished when Faiza ordered her daughter to give me a massage. Faiza’s daughter Ayesha gave me a good massage, and I slept on her lap.The next day, the house was packed with Faiza’s relatives as it was the wedding day. I helped Faiza’s children with the decoration work. I could not get time to spend alone time with Faiza. Finally, at night, Faiza’s. I was now being forcefully fucked by a machine while dressed up as a slut in some perverted man's basement with no way to escape. I began sobbing and pleading with him to let me go."Well now, I forgot all about that hole up there."Confused by what he meant, I watched him pull out a similar machine and position it in front of me."No, you can't do this, you can't make me suck that thing" I commanded, as if I had any control over what would happen.I closed my mouth tight, convinced that I would. First heleaned over and kissed me. It wasn't much, just a little peck on mycheek. Then he asked me if I would consider going out on a date with him,just dinner at a fast food place and a movie. It would not be anythingspecial. I told him that sounded nice but I would have to think about it.If he would give me his cell number, I would call him in a few days,after I had a chance to think about it.I was scared at first. I worried that he would try to rape me like hadhappened before. As soon as I. I guess I think that the July fourth party is a good bellwether for each of you in several ways.“Joyce, you’ll be able to test yourself about your readiness to pursue a more robust lifestyle, perhaps here in the Circle. The missing part of your life, your sexuality, seems to be returning at a rapid rate, and I sense you are truly enjoying that. You’re also experiencing love for the first time, and that’s even better for you.“Ann, you can also test yourself as you go to this party to see how you.