.. hold hands and keepquiet."The husbands went where they had been directed and sat close together,their near hands clasped together and outer hands o... top of them. Thatseemed to satisfy the others, who enjoyed their drinks -- rum and colasall around -- and chatted amiably. The guys were agreeing aboutsomething to do with sports, while the women were comparing notes ontraining their husbands."I make mine watch a lot of TV shows about fashions," said Tessa. "Therewas a marathon of that one. "I just… I don't invite men into my home much and really I have no idea what to talk about apart from the weather, or how well you lit the fire or just how much I enjoy listening to you sing." She laughs quietly at herself, shaking her head as she looks down and away, a nervous smile curling her lips. I'm scared to move to dislodge her hand, to frighten away her touch and to scare away the idea that she perhaps pays attention to me to a similar extent that I pay attention to her."You're. " Sean smiled that slightly cruel, slightly evil, but totally hot smile again. There are times when you can literally see things begin to jell, and things in his mind and events in the world were definitely jelling. "Please, Sir, how much bigger? My bra is a B cup and a thirty four inch bust and I have a twenty five inch waist and thirty four inch hips." Monica was panting by now, nothing holding her in place except Sean's expectations and her need to comply. Sean made gestures in the air. If my mother got an abortion I would leave her life forever, without remorse and trying to overcome the fascination she had exercised over me throughout my life, another of my conclusions was I was so sorry for not having been closer to my father.In the morning I was haggard, gaunt, with bloodshed eyes but had decided of the steps to follow. I went looking for her, it was a long haul, and when she saw me took a step back and a quick cloud of uncertainty passed over her face; my only words.