Bernie was playing with hisbreasts trying to make his nipples erect. Sandra told Bernie who wasonly 14 years old to stop and go to her room and get J...mie someclothes. Jamie was shaking all over despite it not being cold.Sandra took him in her arms and told him everything was going to beall right. A crying Jamie said no, it was not going to be all right,he then told her he was scared of what was happening and knew his lifewas as good as over. Then there is the Pay Back ceremony. She triedto. When he left, we hugged good-bye as we always did, but this hug felt different. It was a slow, lingering hug. He held me tight, his arms around my waist, his hands very low on my back. I had my hands under his jacket, feeling his muscular back flexing as his hands gently caressed my back.It sent shivers through my entire body and I forced myself to break our embrace. He said good night, turned to smile at me, then headed down the hall and out the door. I closed the door and just leaned against. I waved down the hall and said I was going to the gym. A different Marshal was there and was immediately on his radio. He waved me on so I got on the elevator and went down to the fifth floor. The other Marshal was getting off another elevator and walked with me to the gym. After he looked inside I went in and set the treadmill to start me slow and work up to three miles an hour. Not very fast but with one leg, pretty fast. I did the prescribed thirty minutes while watching the news on the. " Mark, you never..." she began."No. I never told you because I did not want to interfere with your attempt to find your own boundaries. If you knew that I was worried, then you would have curtailed your activities out of concern for me. You needed to find your own limits in order to reestablish yourself as an independent, functioning person. And we both needed to know if Gary's treatments were effective in helping you to establish those limits."Stepping forward to wrap her arms around his.