..selfish in a way, but I didn't change into my boyclothes, I just couldn't.Mom was staying busy cleaning the house, and finally told me to gooutside,...I "was in the way," she said. I had never been outside, alone,dressed as a girl that is, and that familiar knot in my stomach cameback when I looked at the door."I'm not," mom said, "going to let you stay inside for the rest of yourlife Kathy. If you don't want to go out as a girl, then go change. Butif you do change, how is that going to help. " That's being damned abrupt, isn't it?" Possibly, but let me say this, Sandy has mostly been a wonderful wife, but there have been times when I could see she wished she weren't a housewife and mother. I still care about her a lot. What will be her role with the bureau after this one project is over? Will she be shoved out into the cold again or will she have a permanent place as an agent, even if it isn't out in the field?" Sandy asked the same question of me when we talked last night. I. . I can't hold out very ... long, Dawn," I groaned. "I ... I'm going to ... going to..." Oh, gosh, sir!" she moaned in my ear. "Oh! You're swelling, sir! You're getting even bigger! Fill me, sir! Please fill me up!"I froze as I came, then couldn't help pounding her for several more strokes, then freezing again. I felt her squeezing me with her inner muscles. "More, sir. Please give me more." She brought one of her arms down and pressed my butt with the palm of her hand, holding me inside her.. "Well, yes, I understand, I'll help out of course. Supervise the help and such, I'll do what I can." Lets get this straight now Lisa," it was the first time Lisa could remember him using her first name and that disturbed her more that anything thus far."I'm your mother," she snapped, "I would appreciate it if you would address me as such." I'll address you as I see fit," his smile evaporating like it was never there. Straightening up he continued. "I'll call you Lisa, or bitch, or whore, or.