But i got no direct sexual pleasure out of this short skinny creepy woman's groping. I got meta pleasure. I have eroticised the passive suffering of t...e repulsive treatment i got. The core of this passiveness is how i was frozen to the spot and couln't move or say anything. It was an incredible feeling, and it is this what i have eroticised. But WHY? As far as having intimacy with a woman? That's just something that I haven't done and will probably not do so. Im a straight woman never got. "Sometimes, though, she wants pain just because it's erotic for her. Her late husband had incredible control with a whip; he could remove light gauze without hitting skin. I certainly can't."I'm no James Bond, but I've been in the field with troops a few times, and, as they used to say in the Civil War, I've seen the elephant. People were shooting at me, and, a time or two, heading at my precious bodies with knives. I was not a pacifist in my response, and I don't lose sleep over what had to be. Willow’s maternal grandfather had been a Government-employed nuclear physicist but when the Cold War became a memory the Government realized it were over-manned so paid off heaps of NP’s. Willow’s mom was four at the time and never saw her father work again because he invested in his friend’s struggling vehicle dealership that grew into the biggest vehicle seller in the city. All granddad was required to do was to go to meetings as an outside director. His daughter Nancy, Willow’s mom, cried. I told him to call me if he wanted to discuss things further. After work on Friday I got in my car and headed on a five hour road trip to visit a friend for the weekend. About an hour into the drive, my phone rang. I was surprised to be greeted on the other end by a young woman with a beautiful Australian accent. She said, "Hiya Mike, you have been talking to my husband on AFF". Her husband had not mentioned that she was Aussie during our previous e-mails. The pot was even sweeter now!We made.