I can tell that you are not far from waking and hold my breath thinking that the roar of my inhale and exhale will disturb you. In my mind I know that...you are unaware of my stolen moment and yet that deep place that is still flooding me with energy wants to believe. It wants to believe you are not only aware of me; that you are the source feeding a part of me I had locked away so tightly, never to be revisited. You are restless and are moving with the twitches and jerks of coming to. " Ismiled to them putting my hand to my chest.Tibius quickly reached into his pocket and produced Terra's version of apersonal planning device. Sam and Cassie would call them I-pods orsomething like that in the future.After a minute and some questioning looks, a holographic displayappeared in front of him.He began reading from the Terran text suspended in the air before him."And so exclaimed the Empress as she began to enlighten those gatheredaround- children of all ages and positions, all. Then I grimaced, worried that I would be, but that didn't happen."Ok, that's better. Much, much better!" I said feeling a hell of a lot better admittedly. But it was still strange.I mean, we all have our own ideas of what Heaven is supposed to be like I suppose. But this wasn't like anything I'd ever even heard of or imagined before either. No pearly gates, though they'd have looked really out of place from where I was standing. No white haired guy in a white flowing robe with a great big book. I rather have a penis in my mouth orin my butt. Oh, my god listen to myself I'm so screwed up.I know the doctor is going to want me to come straight with everyone. Iwill have to tell everyone I'm a guy and I'm sorry for deceiving theminto thinking I was a girl. I'm sure the doctor will also want me tostart living as my true self, a male.What if I don't want to go back to the way I used to be. I mean I shouldface the facts I was a 17-year-old guy who never had sex his whole life.I lived in shit.