The shower quickly turned into a down pour and I found myself running back to the apartment. As I turned the corner I thought I saw you cross the stre...t, so naturally I went tearing after you. The rain started to cloud my vision and the tears were blinding me, so when I finally gained perspective I could no longer see you. Out of frustration I turned and headed back to the apartment. As I walked down the street oblivious to almost everything around me I realized that my relationship to you is. I had made a decision and followed through. I felt pride in myself for that.All I had to do was deliver at least seven more of these swats, and this would be done and over. I felt silly for overthinking the punishment. A weight was lifted from my shoulders because what I was doing felt like nothing at all.The thing I didn’t realize at the time was that punishment wasn’t supposed to feel like nothing at all. I was doing it all wrong.“Son, if you want to kill a mosquito you will have to hit. “Charlie, what the hell is going on? I just heard Sam hollering at you and I am about to go and give him a piece of my mind!”I motioned him to come closer and I whispered, “Larry, I really need to talk to you tonight at McGillicuddy’s is that okay? Things are not as they appear, trust me. I’ll explain everything after work.”“Sam shouldn’t talk to you that way! Poor Linda heard him and I thought she was gonna break into tears. She’s really sweet on you, you know?”“Ugh, Larry, please just tell. "I can clean this up and add some layering. It looks like you haven'tgotten a haircut in a long time." Yeah," I said. "It's been a while."I couldn't bring myself to getting it all cut off. I couldn't do it.The one thing I can control. The one thing that could bring me closerback to Aaron, and I couldn't do it. I was letting her give me a woman'shair cut.She dyed my hair a shade similar to the new color that was coming in.She trimmed my hair back to shoulder length again.When I turned back.