But it was still wonderful, and I still loved every second of it. I’d have loved it even more without the condoms, though. And the pill was out of t...e question, of course. My parents are Catholic. They don’t attend mass, but they’re still Catholic.And so the summer passed, and the day I wasn’t ready for approached.And then it was there, and the car was packed, and we were ready to take off on our great college adventure.And I was a basket case.I did all right when we left my house. Chrissy came. I told her I was not stranger to it and she said she did, but would rather have someone else do it for her.One day, we were hanging out at my house, watching some crap on TV when she laid her head on my shoulder. I was debating whether I should do something or not. "Fuck it!" I thought to myself, "I'm leaving in two months anyway. I should just go for it." I turned towards her and looked into her eyes. She looked right back at me and we started to kiss. It was amazing! Things started to get hot. There was love and hope in both of them and a little bit of that old passion flickered. “Do you love me?” Laura repeated. “I need to know, Brady. You’ve been so distant and closed off with me lately, what’s going on?” As he stood there, his eyes seemed to glaze over in thought, but his hands began to rub her arms up and down from her shoulders to her elbows. “Yes,” he smiled at her, realizing that he really did love her. “I’m so sorry that I haven’t shown you how much. I don’t know why I’ve. She'd already repaid Paul the money he'd fronted her, and the loan she had with the bank was well in hand. Her work hours were flexible. She was even going to be able to get by without Paul's income. It would be tight, but her needs were few. What DID she want out of life?She realized she had no idea. She had no dream—no long term plans. She didn't know where she wanted to be in five years, or what she wanted to be doing. She felt like she was in a dream ... a bad dream, and couldn't wake.