Then the police knocked on the doors, asking if any of this was my doing, if I knew it was being recorded and if I knew who would post this video onli...e like this. As wrecked as I was, I didn't tell them who it was. I never even told them who the sexual partner from the video was. My telling them that I don't remember who it was just made them even more comfortable to look and talk to me like I'm the most promiscuous, fugly and disgusting whore.There are many hours missing from my days, some. I made a mistake a couple of days ago. I had made myself invisible for some reason I don't remember but I do remember that I forgot to make myself visible again and Sandy came blasting down the stairs and ran smack into me knocking us both down the stairs ending up in a crumpled pile of arms and legs. Talk about confusion, Sandy had no idea what had' happened since she could not see me and was cursing herself for being so clumsy. Imagine her surprise when I spoke to her; she almost passed out. Meanwhile, I got a pain relief medicine and offered to apply it to her. She agreed and so did I lifted her leg and kept it on the table. I lifted her saree up and applied the pain relief cream. Trust me, her legs were so soft, with not even a single hair.I was enjoying applying the pain relief cream. She was resting her head on the sofa and I was aroused by her beauty and silky body. With a bit of courage, I moved my hands upward with her saree. I stopped at her knee and started caressing her. Prison was far from civilized. It was dog-eat-dog where the strong survived and the weak succumbed and the result was a culture that worked. Those with a skill or a talent or some degree of knowledge that could be bartered into something better were the winners. The weak or the ignorant looked to those others for their survival, often at the cost of something more precious; their dignity.I was one of the more fortunate and I had learned to take advantage when it was to my benefit. Compassion.