Helen said she would shower and clean up as Dan got us a beer. I chatted openly with Dan about her and how it turned them both on. Then Helen appeare... at the door freshly showered but now dressed to kill in a hot outfit including black stockings. She just asked ‘are you recovered enough to fuck me?’ Oh I was!! Going back upstairs she led me to the bedroom Dan following but with camera asking if he minded. I said carry on and looking across the bed i noticed my reflection as Helen had set up a. ‘Yeah,’ I said, staring longingly at the exit. My throat felt like it was closing up. I needed to get out of this building. ‘Actually, I was looking for you,’ she confessed. ‘Really? What for?’ I asked, trying to avoid eye contact. Because I knew as soon as our eyes met, she’d know everything. ‘Um… I don’t know,’ she stammered. ‘I was worried.’ I looked into her eyes and saw that her worry was genuine. I tried to hide that I cared, but that was useless. ‘Worried about me?’ She just nodded. ‘How. " And I love you too, Husband," she responded, kissing his chin for a second. "But I'm gonna need help." Motioning around her, "She scares me." Arlene went quickly on before Jeff could comment, "Oh, I know she won't hurt me, but this ... this ship itself. Daddy, do you know how ... vast it is – she is? How can she be that way? From the outside, she looks like she's maybe a couple of hundred yards long – well when you can see her at all – but inside ... there are hallways – alleyways – whatever. I forgot to focus on the sheer pleasure that I would experience as all I could think of the word gay. In my world there were lots of people I worked with plus a great uncle who were gay. Most men I knew were pretty cool about there sexuality but my uncle stood out as he was a very boisterous openly gay man who dressed and acted more effeminately. I guessed I would be seen like he was. I know now that has never been or will be the case. I did not get it that being gay means simply refers to who.