She spent most of the day looking out the window even though her view was restricted by the rear wall of the hospital. We left in the mid-afternoon, r...turning the following afternoon to administer another injection. That’s pretty much the way things went for more than a month with absolutely no sign of improvement. ‘God damn it, Toni—they’ve given her the placebo. There’s no hope for her…none at all. I’m so depressed.’ I was, too—so depressed that I didn’t even want to make love with Toni that. Or better yet, how about if I come over one afternoon and show them how it’s done? More coffee?”“Um, no thanks. I think I’ll be heading back.”I stood and asked Steve, “Would you be interested in going with Remy and me to bag one last deer for the clan?” The beginning of a smile turned up the corners of his mouth, and I conceded, “Yeah, yeah, I know it’s illegal, but we promise we won’t rat you out to Eddy.”He laughed and said, “I saw old Eddy a few days ago, and he’s still obsessed with. Ennai vida oru vayathu athigam, muthalil anni meethu enaku entha kaama ennamum varamal irunthathu.En anni thaan kaama ennathai muthalil enaku vara vaithaal, aval nandraaga ennai kaama pasiyil aazhthi kaamam seiya thundinaal. En annan velaiku sendru vittu iravu 12 maniku than velaiyai vitu varuvaan, kalai 9.30ku kilambi viduvaan. Athanaal anni kuthiku athiga sugam kidaikaamale irunthathu, aval vasathiyaana penum kuda.Thirumanam aagi 3 mathangal aagina, avargal vaarathirku oru murai thaan veliyil. Yes, I want and perhaps need his chastisement, But, not without your total approval, I don’t want our marriage to suffer one bit. And if you say no, no it will be!” Me I just didn’t understand it at all, she and harry had this mental link that said he wanted to have her hard, and so on, and though I was there 90% of the meeting dim old me hadn’t taken in any of these signs, he had had her and had her hard, but I never suspected that she wanted more, or that he had offered her this ‘treatment’.