But this isn’t the end of the conversation by any means.”“It’s just ... well, I’m your housecarl, and sworn to protect you. That may include...protecting you from myself.”“So it’s not just me that feels it, eh? Perhaps that’s because my Dragonborn blood has awoken something in you as well?”We walked in silence for a while. We’d left the city and were approaching the stables before she spoke again. And this was with a sly smile. “Perhaps, my Thane. That’s why those thoughts are morally unsettling. Long dangling earrings, press on nails, deep pink of course, this finished her sluttish ensemble.Normally I wouldn’t have chosen all of this pink but that’s what the groom’s best man wanted. Now that I see the sluts finished look, I like it.We arrived at the hotel, not seedy enough to have hooker walking in and out but good enough to throw bachelor parties where high dollar prostitutes are invited. Joy loved walking through the lobby shaking her hips back and forth, noticing all of the eyes on. Oh, Marcus, how do you--" Ifaltered."How do I bear it? It has been horrible. I miss Gloria every second, andevery day I'm home, Jakob's condition reminds me of it all." He neededtime to gather himself, then went on, his voice filled with resolve. "Ilive on three words; they are what hold me together. I pray, I wait, and Iwatch."I started at the word, "pray." Was Marcus as simple as Alwyn? He hadn'tseemed to be. He continued, "And the community of the resistance is thebest help of all. We pray. They tried on several successive nights with the same disastrous results. Once again Laura began to question her womanhood and with that questioning came the longing for the man who could both confirm and satisfy her sensuality.She fought the impulse to see Jullian again, regaling herself for her initial unfaithfulness and her renewed desires to again be in the bed of her lover. Yet, try as she might to distract herself with housework and even volunteering for charity work at the community.