In that moment between sleep and awareness, sliding amongst the shadows of my room, he comes to me in dreams. I feel him in my mind, reaching for me i... that instant where sleep and wakeness blend. I can feel his touch, I let myself go, I orgasm in blinding flashes of light, it has to be him. No one else has ever made me feel like that. I awake, he is gone. Was he here? I think so, I know so. Even if I am wrong, I feel it in my body and mind. Ted looks after me still. {I touch myself, still. I had covered every inch of each boob with my saliva when I began on the left nipple. I sucked it as hard as I could and she squealed. That was the first sound she had made. Her nipple stuck out like a large ruby, it was so red. I moved to the right nipple, but this time was more tender, gently nibbling and licking, until she grabbed my head and forced me to suck it as hard as the other. I sucked so hard I thought it would come off, and all the time she was squealing that little squeak she had.. “No, silly,” she replied, “Can you take me home, to my house.”I quickly apologized and she quickly shot back,“You’ll have to be out by six before my husband gets home.”I chuckled at her response, as I placed the car in gear. She placed a lone finger over her pursed lips and dialed a number in her cell phone.“I’m getting a ride-share to the house,” she said into the phone after a male voice answered on the other end. This was followed by several “Oks” and an “Uh-huh.”Tammy provided me directions. I turned to the internet, and soon found there were plenty of older men who were willing to give a lot of attention to someone like me.The first few times I sucked cock weren't all that exciting, the men were patient & kind as I quickly got into the act of giving blowjobs to real cocks. Warm, fleshy, hard, and soft, with a reward at the end to swallow. They let me take my time, but didn't want much else when it was over, a quick blow & go for married men. I never dressed for them, always.